How would you rate my life and what advice would you give me?

Anyways my life is pretty horrible if you ASK ME, anyways i barley know my dad hes out all day from 4 am to 8 pm , but hes a pretty mean . My mom im with most of the time shes depressed with her life cause she was forced to marry my dad and she thinks about it all the time what she shouldve said and how she regrets she never talked. She only married him to go to america , her family side is really depressing her mom has a tumor and her dad is 67 and works all day in a ice cream truck and comes home for bs and her twin brother is a jerk he married a horrible wife who only cares for her kids vacums her room the whole house is a shambles accpet her room her room only has ac and its patheic i wanna smack her so badly and she buds in busssneiss she talks to her mom all day and gossips . i only go their i nthe summer it pisses me off how she feeds her kid only and my 2 sister watch her kids when she never feeds us when were HER GUESTS. - i only go to them in the summer- and well my dad's side their all smart and sucessfull and greedy my mom hates them they rejected me as a kid i was lonley as a kid cause my cusions rejected me they went to disney world, hershey park and places like that having good memmories and i was poor at the time and they were rich i was never asked once to go . and whenever they come over all i do is sit next to my dad and stay quiet. and my at home life the thing i do everyday is well wake up go and school i try my best and my dad im scared of he hits me if i do bad in school and get 80- below scores and when i come home i have religous tutor for 1 hour and school tutor 2 hours and then i spend the day on teh computer doing hw and my dad comes home and he expects me to talk to him me to listen to him all he talks about are his bussniess parnters and how he hates it. and he NEVER APOLGOIZED TO ME NO MATTER WHO STARTED THE FIGHT SAME WITH MY MOM AND ME HE NEVER APOLOGIZES EVEN IF HE DID IT , YOU HAVE TO DO IT . i tell my mom to divorce him then she says were will we go ?! also nobody ever asks me about my feelings or ever cares i only have friends were will that take you.... i never please my dad i try so hard i listen to him all the time but at thispoint im about to crack under all this stress ! i do house work but im bad at school i try alot my dad ignores me and never really cares he starts fights he picks his sisters over my mom he could care less about my day and how i feel but when somethings wrong with him YOU HAVE TO CARE or he gives a whole depressing speach . TELL ME WHAT TO DO IM GOING TO CRACK IM ONLY 12 IS THIS THE LIFE I DESERVE ?I TRY BARING IT BUT I SOMETIMES CRACK SO MUCH :'(